Keepersofthegarden

By NRagzs@keepersofthegarden

One of the things I love most about Father is, He doesn’t let me see of all my mistakes, my downfalls nor the unfortunate situations that have contributed to my adversity all at once. Father peels me like an onion a little at a time.

Just yesterday He peeled a layer. He wanted me to see I have been unstable in a few areas of my life that have not only caused me hardship but my family. Yes God healed me from the pain and residue of being orphaned at birth but what He has now revealed to me is the consequences of my actions. Even though being abandoned was not a decision I made and I did nothing to prompt it, I made bad, unhealthy, life altering decisions from that place. I made life harder than it ever had to be.

Expecting people to leave, anticipating important things would be taken from me, believing nothing was for the long term, it became easier to beat the clock. I always wanted to attempt to make the next move to avoid the curve ball of life.What I have missed and relinquished in fear. I just did not stay in patience long enough to see the manifestation’s of Gods blessings.

I understand me now, even in the grown woman the little girl was scared and afraid of being, abandoned, discarded and never enough. My Father is great He did take those fears from me but I have a lifetime of bad decisions trailing behind me.

The good news is now I reflect and move forward, I get the lesson and apply it. I won’t live behind me but in the future God promises me. I am who Daddy says I am and He says great things about me and my future.

“I love the today and the right now of where I live.”

If you are Sunflower, I share my life with you to help you grow. I understand you, I am you.

God has great plans for your life, just receive Him.